When it ends...

I don't know why, but the symptoms to update blog, and statuses on FB will only came when it near to exam. As well as watching movies, and sleeping. Whats wrong with me? Is it just me or is it occurs to other as well? Well... today we were just completed our classes for this semester. Yes. It means we are going to have our fun-fun 'party' next week ! The biggest event on earth. FINAL EXAM!! Just thinking of it make me shivers. I feel like.... hmm why time flew so fast?? I don't even realize that we are actually reaching the end of semester as well as the end of year. Sometimes, not realizing is great. But the content that I gain throughout the semester, is it enough for the battle? Of course NOT! Oh yeah, good news. I did mentioned in the last post where we had our last Pharmacotherapy presentation so on and so forth. But, since I was too eager to search for the DRP, hence I brought the COPD CPG to the class when I just realized today that I forgot to bring it back!! How on earth can I do the report? *Sobs. That's the thing. I don't want to talk much today. Wish me luck pleaseeee.... WISH ME PASS WITH BETTER RESULT PLEASE  ^______^ See ya!

Just a normal human being

So have not been in this cloudy fantasy blog life for so long since I have been busy pleasing people which I currently feel so regretful about today. Ok so much for an introduction. Actually I'm currently meeting and dating with this Final Year in Pharmacy. So Tough indeed. If you, juniors want to take this course, think think think and think please before you decide especially when you are just an average like me. I'm not saying its too tough, but yeah.. the subjects you took, the people whom you gonna meet as classmates, friends etc, honestly, everything are hard to deal with. However, I bet more or less, you will able to melt in for some occasion and with some people.

The post can be labeled as miscellaneous post since there is no specific reason why I decided to make this post. Its just I felt like, " Ma... I need home ATM" but sure I wont say them to Mak cause I dont want them to worry plus I'm no longer their puppet. As Abah said, i am a grown up person. Sudah2. Miss home already. We are just completed all the Pharmacotherapy presentation and almost all I don't performed well.  I feel so dissapointed. Plus, since we have so much grouping works for this semester, I felt a little bit stress cause I can't be what I want to be. Its just that I have to drag along cause I don't have much knowledge like them. So I disappointing in myself! I felt i need to do better and better yet I cant coz all things move to fast and suddenly I dont have things left to do. Its hurtful. Yeah, those reading this will laugh at my stupidity. Go on . I don't care cause I know I'm good. Its just my mind cant focus when everything dropped right in front of me at the same time.

That's the 1st thing, well I guess wont believe anyone would be the reminder time by time but I don't know why I keep trusting people. Sometimes I can call them friends but sometimes they act like my biggest enemy. I really miss to socialize with people other than my classmates cause its burden me! So pressure when you chat, talk not other things except classes matter, schedule, and marriage! What? Ahh I guess this is the phase, where I need to prepare much2 earlier. Where people trying to be themselves including me. THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE CALLED AS FRESH AIR. What can I say, it feels like you suffocating in salty water despite you are thirsty. You want, you can, you gain, but then you feel like buweekkk

I felt lonely and don't know whom I can trust to tell what I felt, so here I am. Judge me, hate me, or what.. up to you to feel. I'm not targeting or lasering anyone, its just what I feel about myself and  surely everything are my bad. "If you yourself cant change who you are, why do you expect more , right?"