Just a normal human being

So have not been in this cloudy fantasy blog life for so long since I have been busy pleasing people which I currently feel so regretful about today. Ok so much for an introduction. Actually I'm currently meeting and dating with this Final Year in Pharmacy. So Tough indeed. If you, juniors want to take this course, think think think and think please before you decide especially when you are just an average like me. I'm not saying its too tough, but yeah.. the subjects you took, the people whom you gonna meet as classmates, friends etc, honestly, everything are hard to deal with. However, I bet more or less, you will able to melt in for some occasion and with some people.

The post can be labeled as miscellaneous post since there is no specific reason why I decided to make this post. Its just I felt like, " Ma... I need home ATM" but sure I wont say them to Mak cause I dont want them to worry plus I'm no longer their puppet. As Abah said, i am a grown up person. Sudah2. Miss home already. We are just completed all the Pharmacotherapy presentation and almost all I don't performed well.  I feel so dissapointed. Plus, since we have so much grouping works for this semester, I felt a little bit stress cause I can't be what I want to be. Its just that I have to drag along cause I don't have much knowledge like them. So I disappointing in myself! I felt i need to do better and better yet I cant coz all things move to fast and suddenly I dont have things left to do. Its hurtful. Yeah, those reading this will laugh at my stupidity. Go on . I don't care cause I know I'm good. Its just my mind cant focus when everything dropped right in front of me at the same time.

That's the 1st thing, well I guess wont believe anyone would be the reminder time by time but I don't know why I keep trusting people. Sometimes I can call them friends but sometimes they act like my biggest enemy. I really miss to socialize with people other than my classmates cause its burden me! So pressure when you chat, talk not other things except classes matter, schedule, and marriage! What? Ahh I guess this is the phase, where I need to prepare much2 earlier. Where people trying to be themselves including me. THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE CALLED AS FRESH AIR. What can I say, it feels like you suffocating in salty water despite you are thirsty. You want, you can, you gain, but then you feel like buweekkk

I felt lonely and don't know whom I can trust to tell what I felt, so here I am. Judge me, hate me, or what.. up to you to feel. I'm not targeting or lasering anyone, its just what I feel about myself and  surely everything are my bad. "If you yourself cant change who you are, why do you expect more , right?"